Rant

[barush]

Okay, so, lately I've been really considering making an appointment with some psychiatrist. Because it's getting worse and worse with my anxiety, it's even making me physically sick at some points. The often visits of various doctors don't really help at all. I mean, the problems I currently have are totally unrelated but it all started at the same time basically so there hasn't been a day lately that I wouldn't go to a doctor, blood tests or at least chemist's. My mother's so fucking overprotective and worried about me and I know it's her attitude making me feel like this. It's like, when she thinks I'm dying I'll think I'm dying too. Then, it's holiday so I have basically nothing to stress over and lots of time to think - that's bad! Because then I'm making myself sick with worrying about everything from the sheer lack of anything better to do. Also, I've had kinda high level of 'stress hormones' in my last blood tests (a few weeks ago) with virtually nothing stressful happening in my life. Except for the constant anxiety.

So, back to the original thought, I'm almost positive at least like half of my current problems are psychosomatic. A psychiatrist would surely help. However, the major problem is, my mother's a psychologist. A well-known one at that, so that means even I know most the psychiatrists in our city, as they're my mother's friends. The one I've been to before is probably the best choice, but she knows my mother pretty well. I know she couldn't tell anyone if I went there, but people at the clinic where she sits know me too. And people talk. Well, I really don't want my mother to know if I decided to go there. And that thought of her possibly finding out would just add to my anxiety. So, at this point, I'm lost. I have a few numbers of other psychiatrists but the problem is I know what they're like.

I'm telling myself I'll wait till the school starts again 'cause then there'll be much more to think about so maybe I'll forget about all this. But then again, holidays is the ideal time to sort stuff like this so I dunno. I have no clue what I'll do.

Oh well. I guess I've used up my whining quota for at least a week now. 

Comments

[demetrelli.livejournal.com]

Actually you may be quite right that all your health problems are psychosomatic. And I understand your problem with your city's psychiatrists, I'd feel the same. But yeah, not having much to do can make you think too much somtimes...

If I can do something to unstress you, tell me! Here's my braz icon for now.:D

[barush.livejournal.com]

Well, if I let my more rational side win I'm okay. But then the hypochondriac psycho part of me appears again and I start to have panic attacks. And I've always been the type to over analyze everything, that doesn't help either. Oh well.

And you're making me feel better by just talking to me<33 When my net actually works, that is.

[cookie-wolf.livejournal.com]

Do you think you need a person to talk to or medication? I have both...and personally I think the therapist helps more (haven't taken my medication in months but that might explain my own anxiety, anger and moodswings).

Can you go out of your city? I don't mean travel to Prague, but far enough away that you won't run the chance of your mother knowing? Though she might need to know, especially if she helps pay for all your doctors appointments. Therapy/psychiatry isn't free (or at least, I wouldn't think it is).

Seeing as I don't think I'm helping at all, if you need somebody to talk to/amuse you/unstress you/stand on their head for no particular reason but to make you feel better, I'm here.

[barush.livejournal.com]

Um, I dunno. My city is the biggest one around here and I'm not really familiar with the surroundings and don't have the money to travel somewhere repeatedly. But medical care is free in here. Well not everything, but you don't pay for a psychiatrist/psychologist so it's okay.

And I dunno if I need any meds, but talk to somebody for sure. It's just getting worse and I don't have anybody in RL to talk to, not even my mother who's actually one of the main reasons why I'm feeling like this.

Anyways, thank you <33 You usually make me feel better=)) (Now if my net just would work for once, argh.)

[cookie-wolf.livejournal.com]

It's free? Jesus fuck, I'm moving to Czech. My dad pays my therapist several hundred dollars just for an hour a week.

But if you just need to talk (I'm not enough? :() then you probably just need a therapist, who will decide if you should be on medication (if you ever get to that point, make sure COMPLETE SURE that you tell the doctor every single medication you're on and for heaven's sake, don't let him force you onto Effexor, it does more harm than good).

Look online if you have to. Or just ask your mom and pretend it's your friend who needs a therapist. Course that rarely helps. But good luck.

I'm glad! I try. I worry I try too hard and come off as retarded but... *stands on head*

[(Anonymous)]

On Videnska street near the park there are psychiatrist and psychosomatic ambulance or sth. (not in the same house) And what about the man who got "cena mesta Olomouce"?
http://www.olomouc.eu/phprs/view.php?cisloclanku=2008052801

My uncle was a psychologist, he is retired now. If all people of this kind are like him, my only one big fear in this world would be a psychologist ;) I think most of them talk sh*t = absolute nonsense. They believe they see into a person but it is not true. Uncle gave me some advice which university to choose, when I said I will stay in Olomouc, he got angry ;) Many people get worse after visiting a bad psychologist/psychiatrist. So it must be hard to find a good one I guess. I'd like to visit one but would not want to pay for it...

Btw I have few unopened boxes of some medicine at home. If you get the same, you may have them. They were prescribed from a mad practitioner so they are valuable! :D

OSlinka

[barush.livejournal.com]

On Videnska street near the park there are psychiatrist and psychosomatic ambulance or sth
Yup, that's the one I was talking about. I've been there before and the psychiatrist is my mother's friend. But I know she's probably the best in Olomouc and I've already been there so she'd be a safe choice.

And well, my mother's a psychologist and she says psychologists and psychiatrists are the biggest psychos out there haha Guess it's true lol