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barushOkay, so, lately I've been really considering making an appointment with some psychiatrist. Because it's getting worse and worse with my anxiety, it's even making me physically sick at some points. The often visits of various doctors don't really help at all. I mean, the problems I currently have are totally unrelated but it all started at the same time basically so there hasn't been a day lately that I wouldn't go to a doctor, blood tests or at least chemist's. My mother's so fucking overprotective and worried about me and I know it's her attitude making me feel like this. It's like, when she thinks I'm dying I'll think I'm dying too. Then, it's holiday so I have basically nothing to stress over and lots of time to think - that's bad! Because then I'm making myself sick with worrying about everything from the sheer lack of anything better to do. Also, I've had kinda high level of 'stress hormones' in my last blood tests (a few weeks ago) with virtually nothing stressful happening in my life. Except for the constant anxiety.
So, back to the original thought, I'm almost positive at least like half of my current problems are psychosomatic. A psychiatrist would surely help. However, the major problem is, my mother's a psychologist. A well-known one at that, so that means even I know most the psychiatrists in our city, as they're my mother's friends. The one I've been to before is probably the best choice, but she knows my mother pretty well. I know she couldn't tell anyone if I went there, but people at the clinic where she sits know me too. And people talk. Well, I really don't want my mother to know if I decided to go there. And that thought of her possibly finding out would just add to my anxiety. So, at this point, I'm lost. I have a few numbers of other psychiatrists but the problem is I know what they're like.
I'm telling myself I'll wait till the school starts again 'cause then there'll be much more to think about so maybe I'll forget about all this. But then again, holidays is the ideal time to sort stuff like this so I dunno. I have no clue what I'll do.
Oh well. I guess I've used up my whining quota for at least a week now.
So, back to the original thought, I'm almost positive at least like half of my current problems are psychosomatic. A psychiatrist would surely help. However, the major problem is, my mother's a psychologist. A well-known one at that, so that means even I know most the psychiatrists in our city, as they're my mother's friends. The one I've been to before is probably the best choice, but she knows my mother pretty well. I know she couldn't tell anyone if I went there, but people at the clinic where she sits know me too. And people talk. Well, I really don't want my mother to know if I decided to go there. And that thought of her possibly finding out would just add to my anxiety. So, at this point, I'm lost. I have a few numbers of other psychiatrists but the problem is I know what they're like.
I'm telling myself I'll wait till the school starts again 'cause then there'll be much more to think about so maybe I'll forget about all this. But then again, holidays is the ideal time to sort stuff like this so I dunno. I have no clue what I'll do.
Oh well. I guess I've used up my whining quota for at least a week now.
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Date: 2008-08-19 06:12 am (UTC)http://www.olomouc.eu/phprs/view.php?cisloclanku=2008052801
My uncle was a psychologist, he is retired now. If all people of this kind are like him, my only one big fear in this world would be a psychologist ;) I think most of them talk sh*t = absolute nonsense. They believe they see into a person but it is not true. Uncle gave me some advice which university to choose, when I said I will stay in Olomouc, he got angry ;) Many people get worse after visiting a bad psychologist/psychiatrist. So it must be hard to find a good one I guess. I'd like to visit one but would not want to pay for it...
Btw I have few unopened boxes of some medicine at home. If you get the same, you may have them. They were prescribed from a mad practitioner so they are valuable! :D
OSlinka
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Date: 2008-08-19 05:31 pm (UTC)Yup, that's the one I was talking about. I've been there before and the psychiatrist is my mother's friend. But I know she's probably the best in Olomouc and I've already been there so she'd be a safe choice.
And well, my mother's a psychologist and she says psychologists and psychiatrists are the biggest psychos out there haha Guess it's true lol