Leave... And free yourself at the same time.

[barush]

I've just packed all my CDs to one huge white box. It's almost too heavy to lift, for me anyways. And it's kinda dawned on me now, I'm leaving the place I've lived all my life. As my mother has put it, 'it's not as easy to pack up 20 years of your life to a few boxes'. But I really do hope that some things will get better, the rotten atmosphere around us will disappear... It just makes me feel kinda sad and all melancholic at the moment. I'm so used to everything here and I'm not really looking forward to the change. The flat we're moving to is much better than the one I am in now though so at least something=)

Somehow, it looks like we'll have like 20 boxes only of books so I can't really imagine how everything will work out. And I have no clue who will unpack all this stuff and put it to its new place. I can't see myself doing it but will probably have to as it'll be just my mother and I from (almost) now on. However, I'm in the process of convincing my mother to get a kitty (kitty <333) so hopefully we'll be 3 again soon=)

This year's Christmas was/is the strangest I've ever experienced. There weren't many presents, I didn't have any surprise, the atmosphere was even more awkward than usually... But it certainly fits our current situation so...

And I should really go and start writing the essay I'm supposed to *sigh*

Comments

[sadistic-bella.livejournal.com]

Aw don't get too depressed. Sometimes change is a good thing, you know. You start a new life which might be better...

And you should totally get a kitty!

[barush.livejournal.com]

It's kinda hard not to get depressed, you know...

But yay for kitty, I really hope we'll get one=) and I even have a name for it! lolol

[sadistic-bella.livejournal.com]

I know... *hugs*

Tell me the name!

[barush.livejournal.com]

Well, nothing original. I wanna name it (him) after the singer from Sunshine, Kay <333

[sadistic-bella.livejournal.com]

Well Bladimir it's original for a cat but it's not easy for the cat to learn, so I'll go with Kay! It's a nice name for a cat!....and a human lol.

[barush.livejournal.com]

Ha ha ha Well, his actual name is Karel=) Kay is just a nick name=) and if we get a female (which I hope not) I'm thinking about Elisa *hides* I'd like to say I like it ONLY 'cause I like the sound of it, but... lol

[sadistic-bella.livejournal.com]

Haha you're lucky 'cause I like Elisa! But if you named it Anna heh...well, I'd dislike the cat even if I didn't want to!

[barush.livejournal.com]

I have the same problem actually. Dunno what to take with me and what to leave behind. Not for the sake of space though but simply 'cause my mother wants me to sort through my shit and throw away stuff I don't need anymore. It just feels that I need it all though. Oh, thanx=) I hope so...

[seether-79.livejournal.com]

Don't be sad, I'm sure everything will work out. Change can be scary sometimes but in a way it's also exciting, new things happening can be a good thing.

I sent your CD's on Thursday but I only had you old address on me, will you get them okay? I also got your card on Friday it was very cute :) Thank-you so much!

[barush.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I know that changes are bound to be good sometimes but I'm not really sure about this one. Well, I'll see. And thank you for your nice words, it really does help <333

OMG I love you *hugs* Yeah, I should get them alright=) And the new flat is almost next to the post office I'll probably have to pick them up at so it's all good=) And I promise to send you something better for your birthday!=) But yeah, I was going for cute with that dog to even out my horrible handwriting *hides*

[seether-79.livejournal.com]

Your handwriting was fine I work as a cook and waitress and some of the handwriting I see is just awful you can't understand a word but I could read yours just fine.

Cause I've been working so much I didn't have time to make great CD so don't expect too much, I'll make some better one's, the lady at the post office said thay should arrive in about two to three weeks(sorry again that I sent them so late work as been killing me). Hope the move is going okay :)

[barush.livejournal.com]

Oh really? lol Sometimes I can't read it after myself heh

Oh you didn't have to send me anything at all, you know!=) So I'm like super happy you did 'cause now I have something to look forward to=)

[zimena]

Are you moving? If so, I guess I can understand that it must feel quite strange and sad. But I hope everything goes well, and I hope you will get the kitty, too. Kittens are so <3, I agree completely!

[barush.livejournal.com]

Yeah, my parents divorced some time ago and we're moving out with my mother. It's not far from the place I live now, but still, it is a huge change and it'll probably take some time for me to get used to it.

And I really do hope we'll get a kittyyy! lol We used to have a dog but he died a few months ago (=/) and my mother doesn't wanna another one. But I've always wanted a cat anyways, they're so adorable <33