Leave... And free yourself at the same time.

[barush]

I've just packed all my CDs to one huge white box. It's almost too heavy to lift, for me anyways. And it's kinda dawned on me now, I'm leaving the place I've lived all my life. As my mother has put it, 'it's not as easy to pack up 20 years of your life to a few boxes'. But I really do hope that some things will get better, the rotten atmosphere around us will disappear... It just makes me feel kinda sad and all melancholic at the moment. I'm so used to everything here and I'm not really looking forward to the change. The flat we're moving to is much better than the one I am in now though so at least something=)

Somehow, it looks like we'll have like 20 boxes only of books so I can't really imagine how everything will work out. And I have no clue who will unpack all this stuff and put it to its new place. I can't see myself doing it but will probably have to as it'll be just my mother and I from (almost) now on. However, I'm in the process of convincing my mother to get a kitty (kitty <333) so hopefully we'll be 3 again soon=)

This year's Christmas was/is the strangest I've ever experienced. There weren't many presents, I didn't have any surprise, the atmosphere was even more awkward than usually... But it certainly fits our current situation so...

And I should really go and start writing the essay I'm supposed to *sigh*

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[barush.livejournal.com]

I have the same problem actually. Dunno what to take with me and what to leave behind. Not for the sake of space though but simply 'cause my mother wants me to sort through my shit and throw away stuff I don't need anymore. It just feels that I need it all though. Oh, thanx=) I hope so...