So bring it on, oh come on (come on)

[barush]

OMFG start writing the fucking essay!! *slaps herself*  I'm such a pathetic loser that it's not even funny anymore.

Other than that, my hands are freezing. But the rest of my body is kinda warm so that's just weird.

Also, I don't wanna fucking grow old. Never. Ever. No I'm not hoping to live forever, God forbid, I just don't wanna be old. I'll probably off myself when the first important organ/part of my body gives out, and that wouldn't have to take too long either. Because if I ever end up like my grandfather it will be much worse than dying young.

Now, I said it. And surely I'll be run over by a bus when I step outside the next. Because, you all know what happened to John Lennon, right? And he always said that growing old was the thing he feared the most in life.

Anyways, I need to sign up for the CAE    exam till the 16th of this month and pay a shitload of money to that date too. Why, or why, is this exams so fucking expensive?! I'll laugh my ass off if I fail it or get a C (a B would be okay but an A is an A, you know?). The exam itself will be on March 14th so I've plenty of time to get worked up over it.

My hands are a bit warmer now, typing helps. Maybe I should start typing up the essay, just to warm my hands. I need little unimportant goals, because the word 'important' triggers something in my brain that immediately starts telling me 'read fan fiction, quick, quick!'. Unbelievable, really.

So, I'm gonna warm up my hands.

Comments

[cat-irix.livejournal.com]

You know, I agree about the aging. For the similar reasons too - don't want to end up like my grandmother. I think that supporting the semblance of life in crippled and worn-out bodies is not natural and doesn't have to be a part of the human civilization. Of course I'm not able to influence it on global scale, but hope to be able at least to make my own contribution, by avoiding to be a burden for everyone and myself, when the time is right.

[barush.livejournal.com]

Exactly. I mean if you're healthy and can take care of yourself then live till you're 100 and enjoy it but I don't see a point in necessary suffering and prolonging it as long as humanly possible only for the sake of... I don't actually know why, heh. Definitely not how I wanna end up and if I can do something about it I will.

[demetrelli.livejournal.com]

I know, some part of me agrees on that, some other doesn't want to die lol. I dunno yet, I haven't thought so much about it hm...

And write the freaking essay, it's unimportant! Lol so you can get on with some fic.

[barush.livejournal.com]

Well, I think about such things a lot. It's probably a part of me and I can't do anything about it =) I knooow! I wanna finish it now but dunno, hm.

[seether-79.livejournal.com]

Ah reading fanfiction is stead of writing essays, reminds me of when I was in school lol. I’m sure you’ll do wonderful with all the big stuff you have coming up; just try not to get to stressed out :) as the song says: don’t worry, be happy!

[barush.livejournal.com]

Lmao pity we don't have classes on fan fiction, I'd totally ace them haha And thank you, you're too nice to me <33

[seether-79.livejournal.com]

OMG I wish there was a class for fanfiction, it would be the bomb hahaha. I'm not to nice lol, I just have faith ♥