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[barush]

So first of all, thanx to everybody who commented on my last entry. I seriously love you guys <33

So, this is the first time in a while I can stay on the net for a bit and not run away, freaking out. However, just when I need anybody, nobody's here to talk to so I guess I won't stay long anyways.

Okay, so I'm getting there. Normalcy, I mean. Very, very slowly but at least something. Well, I hope.

I've talked to my mother for a bit and now she probably suspects everything's not peachy. But even if I wanted to tell her what's wrong I couldn't 'cause it's so difficult to explain. Then again, she deals with people like me on daily bases. The thing is, probably, I don't want her to see me as one of her patients.

Then, I've come to a conclusion which might prove to be crucial in the end, I NEED TO FUCKING CHILL OUT.

Okay, so that's all for now. Thanx everybody for putting up with me, I know I can be annoying.

EDIT: Some fan fiction writers/readers might (or might not) want to read this
No further comments, just read it if you're bored or smt.

Edit numero dos:  Okay, so headache I can do with, just no more panic attacks, please, please, please. Also, mother please come home so I can go to sleep. But, God, I can browse utube now, that's a significant progress.

Comments

[cookie-wolf.livejournal.com]

Wait, why are you freaking out about the internet? Will it eat you?

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Will it eat me?

[barush.livejournal.com]

Lmao no, when I'm freaking out I cannot even sit down, let alone be on the net. So being on the net means my current mental state has somehow improved lol

[cookie-wolf.livejournal.com]

Okay, good. <3