*whining*

[barush]

I'm a loser.

I shouldn't be that jealous when there's nothing I can possibly do about it, really. But still, can't help it and feel resentful and abandoned. I considered her my good friend after all. And it hurts now.

Comments

[sadistic-bella.livejournal.com]

First of all you're no loser, you're a human being with feelings, it's normal to feel this way.

*hugs* I wish I could help you... The only thing I can say is that perhaps you can tell her how you feel and make it work again. Doesn't she know the hard times you're going through?

[barush.livejournal.com]

*sigh* So much for the irony.

And I can't possibly tell her 'cause it'd make me look just pathetic. Well, not that I'm not. But thanx for caring <33

[sadistic-bella.livejournal.com]

It wouldn't make you look pathetic, it would make you look in need of a good friend. If she finds it pathetic, she won't be worth your sadness.

[cookie-wolf.livejournal.com]

...What?

[barush.livejournal.com]

Just random whining, don't worry about it=))

[cookie-wolf.livejournal.com]

*bemused* What happened?

[barush.livejournal.com]

Well I don't really wanna annoy other people with my shit. But let's say my really good friend has abandoned me for our mutual friend and they're both acting like nothing has happened. Even though I hardly talk to any of them anymore. It's really pathetic, but in my small amount of close friends losing two at once kind of sucks.

[cookie-wolf.livejournal.com]

I bother you enough, don't I?

My instant advice would be: "Kill them both." However, that's not recommended so I agree with Jamie and try to talk to them. Are they still CLOSE to you or are they blowing you off like you were all never friends period?

If it's the second, drop it, ignore them, they aren't worth it. If a friend is a friend, then they wouldn't drop you like that. I've had the same thing happen to me.

[barush.livejournal.com]

Sadly, it's the second case. One of them was my almost best friend though so it's kinda hard to forget about it. But yeah, it's not the first time this happened to me either. I think I'm just not 'cool' enough for them anymore.

[cookie-wolf.livejournal.com]

Yeah, she was my only and best friend and I had just been diagnosed with bipolar so apparently I was too fucked up in the head for her.

Whatever. You're cool enough for me anyway.

I hate people like that... High school drama.

[barush.livejournal.com]

Well, I wouldn't say high school drama as it's not a drama at all in the first place. And you're not fucked up=)) Or at least not more than any other person=))

[cookie-wolf.livejournal.com]

Eh... Drama overall, right? And thank you. *hugs*

[sadistic-bella.livejournal.com]

You're not cool?! *dies* I can't believe that. If you want to see "uncool" people, you should come to my school I swear. You rock, kay??? I mean, you can even stand my hyperness!

[barush.livejournal.com]

I'm totally boring and unsocial in RL=)) And fat. Just felt like saying that. And I'm lucky to have you, really, 'cause my RL 'friends' aren't just gonna cut it.

[cookie-wolf.livejournal.com]

*sad* what about me?

[barush.livejournal.com]

Well, sure, I mean you as well <33 You two and my best RL friend > any other RL friend. But I don't complain (much) =))

[cookie-wolf.livejournal.com]

I like how people you meet over the internet are prob more likely to stick with you than RL. I'm more honest with the ones I meet over the internet.

[barush.livejournal.com]

Well, same here. 'Cause writing something is actually much more easier than saying it to someone in person.

[cookie-wolf.livejournal.com]

Number one reason why I prefer IM/email.

[seether-79.livejournal.com]

I read over the comment to get the idea of what happened and that totally sucks. I know it might sound stupid but if they just belw you off like that then they don't deserve you as friend in the first place. People really suck sometimes, you'll meet better people as you get older who like you for who and what you are! Youre are totally awesome and don't forget it ;)

[barush.livejournal.com]

Aww, thanx *hugs* I just wish it was that easy, you know? 'Cause you know someone for the better part of your life and then they just decide they don't wanna be friends anymore. Well, I'll see what happens. But thanx for your nice words, you always cheer me up <333

[seether-79.livejournal.com]

I've been there I had the same best friends since pre-school, we'd been best friends for 16 years, but when she got engaged she was suddenly to cool to be my friend anymore, she only wanted to hang out with people that were engaged or married like her. At first is sucked but honestly I'm glad now, I'm glad that I don't have to waist my time on someone who doesn't deserve it. I hope that things will look better for you soon, your a lovely person and I hope you realize that :)