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barushOkay, so first of all, the happy news: I HAVE THE LINKIN PARK TICKETS! JUNE 17th! *swoons*
Now, the whining ensues. Leave while you can.
Today was a terrible day. But let's start from the beginning. Lately I've really been questioning my sanity, all the mood swings, paranoia, anxiety. I'd really like to think it's 'cause of the stress I have in school, the upcoming finals, too many exams etc., but I really don't know anymore. I've always been handling stress quite well. Not anymore though. We wrote two tests today, Spanish and history seminar, the subjects I usually have no problems with. But, needless to say, I totally fucked them both up. Well, it's not like this has never happened before but today it really got to me for some reason. I was so fucking upset I almost started crying in front of my classmates. Thankfully I didn't, saved it for home. The thing is, I really did fucking study. Oh well. And I'm pissed at myself 'cause this is so fucking pathetic. I've never cared about school, God. I guess I'm more concerned about what the teachers are gonna tell me 'cause I have never written a test this badly in those subjects and they're bound to notice 'cause they always do. Hopefully there won't be any questions, guh.
So today I've gone from miserable to beyond pissed and now... I'm just exhausted. But I still need to study for geography 'cause I don't wanna today to repeat itself.
Oh and tonight it's the Champions League final, Chelsea against Manchester. I'm afraid ManU's gonna win but will see, hm.
Now, the whining ensues. Leave while you can.
Today was a terrible day. But let's start from the beginning. Lately I've really been questioning my sanity, all the mood swings, paranoia, anxiety. I'd really like to think it's 'cause of the stress I have in school, the upcoming finals, too many exams etc., but I really don't know anymore. I've always been handling stress quite well. Not anymore though. We wrote two tests today, Spanish and history seminar, the subjects I usually have no problems with. But, needless to say, I totally fucked them both up. Well, it's not like this has never happened before but today it really got to me for some reason. I was so fucking upset I almost started crying in front of my classmates. Thankfully I didn't, saved it for home. The thing is, I really did fucking study. Oh well. And I'm pissed at myself 'cause this is so fucking pathetic. I've never cared about school, God. I guess I'm more concerned about what the teachers are gonna tell me 'cause I have never written a test this badly in those subjects and they're bound to notice 'cause they always do. Hopefully there won't be any questions, guh.
So today I've gone from miserable to beyond pissed and now... I'm just exhausted. But I still need to study for geography 'cause I don't wanna today to repeat itself.
Oh and tonight it's the Champions League final, Chelsea against Manchester. I'm afraid ManU's gonna win but will see, hm.
