Whoah, that sure does sound like you've got a LOT going on... sending uni-applications must've been tough in itself. And then all the learning! Wow. I will crush my fingers too goo with all the crossing my fingers that I'll do for you. I really wish you the best and that you'll get where you want to go!!

Otherwise... have fun with reading fictions :) That's always a good thing to distract yourself from all the stress in RL. Take care! <3