barush: (15 feet)
This is gonna be real short, 'cause I just need to get it out of my system.

Remember the history written final I've been whining about recently? We got it back and to my huge surprise I got 1! =) It was really close though, I had 51 points out of 60 and 49 was already 2. But the over all marks weren't that good. The most points anyone got was 53 and there were just 4 people who had 1 (out of 16). Honestly, I think the teacher (our class teacher, no less) could have been less strict. Oh well. I guess I can be glad they, for some unexplainable reason, liked my Nazi essay =) And for the oral part I can get maximum 40 points, so altogether the max is 100 and 80 is still 1, 60 still 2... So that means I must get at least 9 points out of 40 to have 2, which would be totally okay with me =) Spanish, on the other hand, will be much worse.

Now to the not so happy news. You might also remember me stressing over the uni applications. Today I got all the invitations for my uni entrance exams and guess what? They're all in one day!!! =/ Prague, Brno and Olomouc, meh. In Brno I have Spanish and English in one day, so they'll move one of them to the next day, but it still means the rest is on the 1st June. So I guess I'm decided I'll sit the exams in Olomouc on the 1st (English and Spanish) and either English or Spanish in Brno on the 2nd, depending on what they'll move. SO this basically means I'll fucking stay here for uni, which really, really sucks. Well, depending if I'll be accepted here. If not, then I'm screwed 'cause I doubt I'll get to Brno. My last hope would be the school in Prague for which I've already sat the exams.

So, I'm pissed beyond belief. Also, I'm sorry if you made it here. I just needed to whine.

barush: (insomnia)
History whining again! Beware!  )
barush: (suicide)
Jesus fucking Christ, I'm fucking sick of history already. I'm at question 24 out of 28 but I guess I lost my sanity somewhere between questions 10 and 11, during the 100 years war. Really, I don't remember anything. And... they made me hate Middle East with passion, I can't remember what difference is between Fatah, Hamas or Hezbollah anymore, let alone what PLO means. Fucking wars, fucking terrorists. Really, why can't there be peace? 'Cause like that there'd be at least 50% of shit less to study. Ironically, the WWII is probably the only thing I really do remember. I spent my whole afternoon with communism, those lovely comrades Stalin, Kruschew, Gorbachev and a lot more. And guess what's next? Yup, Yugoslavia. I'm not gonna survive the next month, because when I'm just thinking about studying all this shit again for the oral exam I feel like running a bullet through my head. What a great idea to choose history for my finals, right? Right? And I haven't even started with Spanish yet.  

I need a coffee and House porn and a House epi. And then, then I'm gonna finish those 4 remaining questions and fucking forget all about history and hope I won't fuck it up too much on Wednesday.

Sorry if you get here, you can go back to whatever you've been doing before.

Oh and happy Easter! =) I'm obviously enjoying it.

barush: (suicide)
I'm writing a math test tomorrow and don't know anything *sigh* However, I've been slaving over WWII notes today and studied law so at least I can rationalize why I didn't study to maths.

Other than that I'm kinda sad for no apparent reason. Not depressed or anything, just sad. Some people are ignoring me and I've no idea why, school sucks (as usually)  and I'm starting to stress about the finals. I'm writing a final exam from history in less than a month and I haven't started to study properly yet.

On the other hand, I've found some new songs to listen to and a few pretty good House fics to read so at least something. Yeah, I don't really need much in life.

I guess I should go to bed, it's kinda late already. Night everyone.

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So what did I do during the weekend? Right, nothing. Again. Okay, so I did do a few homeworks and made some notes but I didn't study history at all, the only chance I had to really look at it. I can't believe myself. 

Anyways. I've almost 2 pages of the Che!fic already, the process of writing it is very slow but I haven't abandoned it yet, go me. Also, I'm thinking about entering a writing contest, the requirements are to write a story of max. 1500 words and the prompt is 'change'. I already have some vague idea but if anyone has some stroke of genius and wants to share - go for it =)

On another note, I'm planning to go to Berlin in summer with my friend so if there's anyone from Berlin or anyone's planning to go there, let me know =) I'd love to meet some LJ friends in rl =)

I guess I'll go to bed now, school tomorrow *sadface*


Feb. 17th, 2009 08:12 pm
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I had to leave school early today (at 10am so after just 2 hours) 'cause I was really sick =/ It was right before a math test though, so I imagine how it must have looked like *sigh* Oh well. I came home and slept for like 6 hours. And I'm still pretty sick. It's probably the flu or some such as I have a fever too, as if the nausea wasn't enough. I haven't thrown up yet, surprisingly, but it feels like it's gonna happen any minute. I'm not gonna go to school tomorrow probably, which sucks, but I can't do anything about it.

'Kay, can't stay here too long, the screen's making me positively boil. Just needed to whine a bit. Take care, all of you.

barush: (dark genius nick)
You know what I hate? Stuff I need to do for school that requires some internet research. Because, you know, the internet is full of fan fiction that causes unwanted distraction. I have no will power to fight it so I just give in and start to look for fics I haven't read yet instead of searching for Spanish history in Spanish. I am fucking hopeless *facepalm*

Other than that... My grandfather's funeral is on the upcoming Friday. So instead of going skiing, I'm going to mourn with a few dozens of people I don't know, but they all know me. And you know what? I am fucking looking forward to it. Really. My mother told me they were gonna play 'Requiem' by Mozart there and I was like 'awesome!'. Never mind my grandfather died. Never mind my mother's depressed and doped up on antidepressants. I'm really wondering what kind of a creature I've turned into. I cried only once, for a while, and now... I'm not even sad. I don't... care. And frankly, it kind of scares me. I don't get myself anymore.

I will kneel at your feet
I will lie at your door
I will rock you to sleep
I will roll on the floor
And I'll ask for nothing
Nothing in this life
I'll ask for nothing
Give me ever-lasting life

There she goes, my beautiful world
There she goes, my beautiful world
There she goes, my beautiful world
There she goes again

barush: (15 feet)
Imagine a really shitty day. Got it? So that's my day today.

My grandfather died yesterday night, but they told us today. Well, my mother told me. It was her father, btw.  He had been in a hospital for over a month (some vascular problems) but it really was rather unexpected. They don't really know what happened so we must wait for the autopsy. Oh well. I could rant about it, and I probably will at some point, but I don't have the energy now.

Also, I've learnt today one of my classmates has cervical cancer=/ I knew she wasn't really healthy (she's anorexic too) but this really hit me. Apparently, she's already been operated but I've no idea how it went or anything. We're not particularly close, but I have known her for 6 years so that makes you care for a person. Oh well. I hope she'll be alright.

And I should study maths, but I don't feel like it at all. I'd like to just go to bed and cry myself to sleep =/

Obama, however, makes today a tad bit better.


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